These few days....

...I felt like I'm waiting for my death sentence to annonunce to me... minutes felt like hours... hours felt like weeks... I hate this feeling... I hate the feeling of knowing there is something going to happen, yet I don't know what is it.... If its about us... why can't you tell me what you are thinking.. so that I can think also... why are you the only one making decision for us... Us=you and me... does that required my input of thought? Don't I have the right to decide? *breath breath* I should respect your decision... since I have decided to carry on with my life this way... I will try to focus my love to you as friend... even it takes most of my energy.